So this past weekend I went to a church retreat up at Camp Mikkel. At first I didnt want to go but now I thank God that my mom made me go. I had THE BEST time. I desperatly needed that time away from school, family, other friends and the internet. I became closer with God which was AMAZING. I met so many great people who accepted me for me. It was one of the best feelings in the world. Everyone loved everyone and we all were there for a great cause...to strengthen our relationships with God. During the weekend we got caritas( latin for spirtual giving) bags which were filled with letters from all the veterns of the camp telling up how much they and God loved us. There were the sweetest letters. Also during the weekend we were divided up into groups of about 6 or so. The people in my group were AWESOME...wow I cant even begin to describe them. Between working together, praying together, and intrupting dancing together I have created such a bond with these people. I never thought that I could get to know someone in such a way in only 3 days. I may not know there favorite color or what there favorite food was but our bond is so different.  Together we all grew spiritually and I will ALWAYS be there for them. God really was looking out for me when he put me into that group, and I am fovever changed because of this experience.

So I advise everyone to go to a church retreat or camp because it is one of the best things you can do when times get rough!

Ok that last entry was a lil on the bad/sad side....I guess it was just "one of those days" lol anywayssssss I am not gonna let that kinda stuff get to me. So now I decided to put some cute/happy things on here! Enjoy!

   ( I love to pop that stuff!)    

Hey Yall! How is everyone? I havent updated in like forever mostly because I have been really busy with school and I got a myspace. Right now I am trying to work on this history narrative thingie and I cant seem to figure out how to start it. So I thought that maybe if I wrote on Xanga then I could later go over to my blank Word.doc and type some stuff on world war 1. Who knows....anyways I think this next part of this entry is going to be my thought/vents of the month... so u may just want to hit that little red X at the top of your screen rightttttt      abbbouuutttt     NOW!

UGHH I HATE VALENTINES DAY! I think a male created this holiday! It is retarted! Heres the whole theory on why its such a usless holiday... 1st of all if you dont have a boyfriend and significant other then you get all depressed about it so what do you do when your depressed...? YOU EAT...and eat....and eat and eat....and in the spirit of Valentines day you eat chocolate and cookies and candies...basically all the bad stuff for your body and what does that bad stuff do to it..? MAKES YOU FAT...and then when your all fat what happens...? NO GUY WILL LOOK AT YOU...and if no guy looks at you....? YOU HAVE NO DATE OR BF for V-day...therefore its a never ending circle of depression and no date!  Another thing that really has been making me mad this past month are people who are fake and arent being themselves...espically when you THEIR OWN FRIEND can see it. COME ON PEOPLE JUST BE YOUR SELF..THERE IS NO ONE WHO IS BETTER QUALIFIED! WE ALL LOVE YOU WHEN YOU ARE YOU AND NOT WHEN YOUR TRYING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE! I dont know how to make this point any clearer..b/c its really bugging me!

So now on to a new point, I am giving up. I am done fighting. Fighting to be some-what known, fighting to make the grades, fighting to not be seen as the "the stupid girl on that side of the room" and but most of all I am done fighting for that feeling of being "in". I know this probably makes zero sense to anyone but it  does to me. Maybe I am supposed to be feeling this way for a reason. I know God has a plan for me which is far better than my own. He has a reason for making me experience these many different ranges of emotions. I know everything is going to be great in the end, its just that the hard part is doing all the stuff to see the end. Right now I just need to trust in God and know that everything will be alright. Yea, I may lose friends, but then again maybe it was supposed to happen. I probably wont get into UGA now but then again there is a reason for that too. As much as it hurts right now to come to terms with certain issues due to the  fear of losing things, in the end everything will work out for the best. So until next time....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

I have been tagged(thanks Longino!)....20 things that others may not know about me...

1) I hate the dark! I love to have all the lights on even if I am not in a certain room, if I could, I would sleep with my lights on ...

2) I love any and EVERY chic flic!

3) I am obsessed with weddings and marriages! I love them so much, I even have a wedding portfolio..how ever its kinda weird because I dont plan out the guy, just what the day is going to be like.

4) I think it would be so much fun to be tinkerbell or Minnie Mouse in DisneyWorld for a summer!

5) When I was seven I got my first goldfish and it lived to two years...its name was Igits

6) I LOVE Georgia, the only other places I will live in are Manhattan, and Charleston,SC

7) During or after college I want to travel to Spain, Italy, France, Austalia, and England...and when I get married, I want to travel even more places with my husband

8) I  hate change, and just change in general...but I know its usually for the better

9) My mom and I are very close even though we sometimes fight. I tell her EVERYTHING!

10) When I was five I asked my best friend Zach to marry me, he said he had to ask his mom and think about it......I am still waiting for the anwser...lol

11) I am allergic to sunscreen, and I found that out the hard way when I was three at the beach with my dad.

12) I love to clean! Whenever I am stressed or had a bad day I just clean away!

13) I feel kinda out of place in my classes because everyone seems to want to be some sort of CEO, cheif this and excutive that while even though I want to be a pharmacist for a couple of years, there is nothing better to me than being able to be a stay at home mom.  The minute I see my kids wake up every morning in their cribs and smile, I know that  it is worth more than any amount of money in the world.

14) It's the small things in life that makes me most happy

15) Whenever I have to unload the dishwasher I cant get the knives out because I am too scared of them...so my parents or my brother have to help me

16) I hate, hate, hate, when people are mad at me and I would do anything to try to make up with themmm..so I guess thats also along the lines of  I HATE DRAMA!

17) I always eat dessert last

18) I feel better and more confident when I have a new outfit on

19) Whenever I eat my reese's, I bite around the striped sides and then I take the chocolate layer off of the top and eat that. Then I take the chocolate layer off of the bottom and eat that. Then I eat the peanutbutter middle last.

20) I am me...if you don't like me, then I am sorry. But I am not gonna be someone that I am not because in the end that would be cheating myself the most. Each day I try to be more and more honest with myself because like that quote said "Be the orginal....dont die a copy!" So I advise all of yall to be YOUrself....its much better and thats how I like ya!

Now, I think I am supposed to tag people, so I tag Marilin, Papso, Andrew Hollar, Christine, Jennifer, Betsi, Liz and anyone else who wants to do it!

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger." ~ Luke 2:8-12

Merry Christmas Yall!! Don't forget, Jesus is the reason for the season!